Eckhart Tolle instructs us to live in The Now. Artists do this when they are in the act of creating - we enter a timeless dimension when we connect to that deep coursing river, that sublime source that binds us all. That's on a good day. At other times we are unable to shut out the judging voice, the harsh, harping critic that tell us our work is crap and what the hell are we doing wasting our time goofing around in the studio anyway??
I struggle with this all the while. There's a terrific book by Dan Millman titled The Life You Were Born to Live about a sort of numerology system, and in this system, I am a 29/11, which means Double Creativity and Confidence. According to Millman, the 29/11's life challenges center around low self-esteem regarding their huge creative energy. So here today is a bit of shameless horn tooting - more for me than for any of you wonderful and creative readers - to remind myself that I am "a very real artist," as one dear friend refers to me...because I do forget.
My self-portrait, Self with Lipstick, is in the book Drawing From Life, by Clint Brown and Cheryl McLean. I found out about this after the book was published when an acquaintance of mine who teaches drawing at USM alerted me to the fact that my drawing was in the text book he was using that semester. I'm still amazed at this. There's my name in the index in the very same column as Matisse and Michelangelo. Yo.
(Not that being in a book makes me a very real artist, but heck, as far as boosting confidence goes, it sure doesn't hurt!)